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642 Things to Write About Challenge: Week 23

Written By: Colleen - Jun• 09•13

Well, this was an easy one this week.  I’ll give a longer update later, but I really wanted to make sure that I had the chance while it was quiet in this hospital waiting room to do a challenge topic for this week.

“Write about what you are worrying about right now.”

I write this from the family waiting room of the Intensive Care Unit at Mercy Medical Center in Rockville Centre, NY.  My grandpa isn’t doing well and I’m worried.  Actually, I’m beyond worried.  I’m terrified.  I’m worried that he won’t “get better” this time.  I’m worried about my grandma.  Today is her 83rd birthday and she hasn’t leave his bedside since they arrived at the hospital on Tuesday morning.  Seriously.  She’s so dedicated to my wonderful grandpa that before we got her out for a mere hour yesterday (Saturday), she was wearing the same clothes that she arrived in on Tuesday, which also happened to be their 58th wedding anniversary.

What a fucking week.

I’m so worried about my family.  Everyone has been at the hospital from morning until night, choking back emotions and barely sleeping.  I know that we’re not the first or last family to go through this, but at the end of the day, this is my grandpa and my family and I’ve never been more worried about them in my entire life.

I promise to have a better topic next week.  I’m just so tired and drained right now that I can’t think of anything other than this shit.  What’s worrying you?

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  1. Your worries far outweigh mine.

    I’m worried about going back to work tomorrow and facing a computer that won’t boot and an IT department that’s holding it hostage to make me take a lesser computer as a refresh instead of fixing it. We are in a standoff over principles of what type of system an engineer should have over what an administrative assistant should have. All the while, deadlines pile up.

    It’s a problem of today and not one that will matter weeks or years from now. Definitely a “this too shall pass” sort of worry, but one that has bothered me all weekend (when I let it).

    Yours is bigger, important, something that really matters. Be there, and be love, and let your family take care of you in return.

    Thinking of you and sending energy your way.


  2. Will says:

    Sorry to hear about what your family is going through. All of my worries are career related and I’m sure everything will work out soon.

    Your family is in my thoughts..

  3. sitakatherine says:

    I’m so sorry about your grandparents, Colleen. What I worry about is the same thing I’ve always worried about. Money. I never have enough and this summer is going to be so tight.

    • Colleen says:

      Des, I know money is tight, I’m so sorry. Link me your Etsy shop. Maybe I’ll do a post pimping both yours and Jay’s out at the same time. I keep meaning to do a post like that, but I keep forgetting haha.

      • sitakatherine says:

        Thanks, Coll! I could have found a full time job but I really want to graduate in December. I can’t do full time classes and full time job. So I decided to sacrifice a little comfort for a long term improvement.

        Here’s the link to my etsy shop. But apparently all my listings have expired. I guess they don’t email you and let you know that. I will work on getting them back up the next few days.

  4. Lynn says:

    I worry a lot about what my future will be and if I will ever have a family of my own.

    • Colleen says:

      @Lynn, big hug! I still worry about my future, but when I stop everything else and start to think about all the things I’ve hardcore worried about over the past 29 years, most of them have always worked out “for the best” as they say. See you in July?

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