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June 12, 2013

Written By: Colleen - Jun• 12•13

But the ending always comes at last
Endings always come too fast
They come too fast, but they pass too slow
I love you and that’s all I know

I lost one of my very best friends at 12:34am this morning.  He went peacefully, completely surrounded by 12 members of his family.  We held his hands, stroked his head, and hugged him as he went to be with his own mom, whom he hadn’t seen in 68 years.  While it hurts us like hell to be like here without him, we are very comforted to know that he has no more pain.

My worst nightmare and it’s really happening.

God, I hope you exist and I desperately hope there really is a heaven.

Thank you so much to everyone who has left me kind messages on here, Twitter, Facebook, voice mail, text message.  I want to answer all of you individually, but I just can’t think right now.  I can’t believe this is happening.  I thought we had more time.

This is Grandpa doing a reading at our wedding.  Ever since I was a little girl, I knew that I wanted my Grandpa to do this reading when I got married.  I cried from my seat as I listened to him read it.

Rosie and Louie at their wedding 58 years ago, on June 4, 1955.

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Rosie and Louie, 56 years later, on Jay and my wedding day.

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Goodbye, Grandpa.  You and Grandma did a great job.  I love you more.  I’m positive.

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  1. Kristi says:

    Colleen, my biggest condolences to you and your family xox

  2. Scot says:

    My deepest and most heartfelt condolences to both you and your family.

  3. Colleen,

    I am so very sorry and send my love and thoughts and prayers to you and your family. While I didn’t know your Grandpa, I got to know him through the wonderful stories you’ve shared. Hugs and love to you, your Grandma your siblings, everyone. You are not alone.

    Melissa

    • Colleen says:

      Thank you so much, Melissa. He was a wonderful man and my grandma is a pretty bad ass awesome lady. I appreciate all of the love and thoughts and prayers. xoxo 🙂

  4. Doris says:

    I am so so sorry for your loss.y sympathies to you and all your family.

    Your relationship and special love for your grandfather makes me hope that my kids can have a relationship with my dad, their grandfather, as special, as cherished, as as you have with your grandpa.

    Hugs

    • Colleen says:

      @Doris, thank you so much. My close relationship with my grandparents started when I was born, since my parents lived with them the first year and a half of my life. We visited them every weekend while I was growing up and I lived with them again for a few months in 2007. I hope your children can have the same close relationship and experiences I was lucky enough to have with my own grandparents, too. 🙂

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