Note: I tried posting this last night until about 1:15 a.m. on the WordPress app on my phone, but it kept crashing on me. Pretend all the “tonight’s” are “last night.” Stupid no Internet ruining my emotional moment! Well, we officially moved out of our trusty old apartment. I cried when we did our last […]
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July 12.
So here we are. July 12. One month later. I know that time will make it better, but right now, it isn’t. It actually gets a little bit worse for me each day. I think living in Raleigh has given me a delayed reaction for it to really sink it. I’m not there every day […]
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It’s funny the effects that grieving can have on you. On one hand, you know that life goes on and you have to go on with it, but at times you find the other hand clutching your forehead as you try to block out memories and reality that pop up at inconvenient times. It’s been […]
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Sometimes, a workweek can drag on forever. By Friday, Tuesday seems like it was weeks ago. Other times, you blink your eyes and wonder, “Man, when did it become May 2013? Did I miss January through April?” Today, it simultaneously feels like it’s been minutes, days, months, and years since May 17, 1998, the day […]
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March 11. It’s been one year since the last day I can truly remember that everything was okay. And the really fucked up part is that on March 11, 2012, I was so damn hungover that I spent much of that day in the bathroom throwing up. I missed out on experiencing that day in […]
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So here we are on New Years Eve 2012. Generally on New Years Eve, I try to do a post that sums up my past year [2008, 2009, 2010, 2011]. For the last several weeks, I have been struggling with what I was going to say or do in that post commemorating the end of 2012. At […]
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I’m having a moment. The emotional impact of this entire year has started to really hit me this weekend. Such a year filled with so many obstacles and so much loss. Everything was perfect in 2011; what happened? So much change. A fantastic year professionally, which I am thankful for, but a horrible year personally. […]
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I’ve been angry lately. It’s permeated through my entire being and affected my aura. I find my anger materializing in unexpected ways because I have no outlet for it. I can’t be mad at God because he may retaliate at my lack of faith. Working out or a glass of wine doesn’t help. Instead, I […]
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I don’t have anything to add this year to what I’ve already said in the past (Ten. & 9 years goes by fast.), so I just want to take a minute to honor those who lost their lives that day and those who gave their heart and soul to the rescue and recovery missions. Never […]
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More bad news out of New York this morning. I’m too worn down to even finish a workout or do the dishes/laundry/grocery shopping or turn on the TV. You win this round, universe, but we’ll win the next one. Mark my fucking words. Tweet
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