a moment

I’m having a moment.  The emotional impact of this entire year has started to really hit me this weekend.  Such a year filled with so many obstacles and so much loss.  Everything was perfect in 2011; what happened?  So much change.  A fantastic year professionally, which I am thankful for, but a horrible year personally.  I just want everything to go back to normal.  I hate that I will have to get used to a new normal.  I want the old normal.  I can’t see through the fog yet that we’ll come out on the other side unscathed.  Maybe we won’t be unscathed.  I feel like we already have been bruised and shattered and disappointed.  I just haven’t gotten through this selfish moment I’m self-absorbed in yet to be able to believe that the chips will fall as they’re supposed to fall.  They always do; why is it always so difficult to see that while they’re still up in the air?

From this weekend’s PostSecret:

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