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642 Things to Write About Challenge: Week 32

Written By: Colleen - Aug• 11•13

Last of the depressing posts for a little while, I promise.

“What you think about that always brings you to tears.” 

Easter 2012.  My grandpa had just gotten his cancer diagnosis and while he was leading us in “Grace,” his voice broke and he had a difficult time getting through the prayer.  It was incredibly emotional and one of the only times in my life that I can remember seeing him like that.

At the time, I thought he was just scared of the battle he faced.  In hindsight, I think he knew what was coming.  I think I knew, too.  I cried too much during 2012 to not know, deep down, the inevitable.  Sometimes you just get a feeling, you know?

While thinking about a lot of other things that happened between March 2012 & June 2013 make me sick, thinking back to that moment on April 8, 2012 brings me to tears.  He knew.  He knew and he loved his family so much that he didn’t want to leave us.

We didn’t want him to leave us, either.  I still can’t believe he’s gone.  Two months tomorrow, July 12.  This is really hard.

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  1. Michael says:

    This is tough, generally I the sad events I can comprehend and accept overtime. When I think about the moment I first saw Connor, and he touched my finger and held on, I definitely get misty.

  2. Desiree' Bingham says:

    It doesn’t necessarily bring me to tears, but it does make me well up anytime I think about my cousin at her mom’s funeral. She was only 17 at the time, and she was completely dependent on her mother. As she approached her mother’s coffin, she started sobbing and screaming “Mama! Don’t leave me, mama!”. My heart broke that day. As I’m typing this, my eyes are watering up.

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